It has taken me several rough drafts to write this one blog, so I hope you know what type of person I am before you even read what I have to say.

I'm not a writer, my sentences are sloppy and it probably feels like reading what a twitter-head thinks 'intelligence' sounds like. I doubt this would give you the incentive to keep checking up on my blog. That's okay man.. You see; I just need a place to ramble, whether it be about videogames, social media, or just.. Poorly written analysis on topics I enjoy.
I just need a place to be a very flawful person. On social media; my personality is scrubbed clean off the internet so as to make myself look friendly or unproblematic. This way, I won't lose people!!, but in doing so; I feel like it's affected the way I express myself vocally and in writing..Well Recently.. I've just had a falling off with social media in general, mass unfollowing, getting below average likes, and I think creating long-form types of posts from my own website; could bring out a different side of me. The one that doesn't care about getting dopamine from a few lovely friends clicking his posts, Maybe a more sophisticated version where it feels like I've written all my blogs using a quill! LAWL!!

reading back on this section this makes It sound like I've done something really bad, I promise you It's because of my lack of social participation!!

Let's talk about birthdays. I'm about to be 21 which, you'd think would make me break down and go MY LIFE IS RUINED!!! I'M LONELY AND I HAVE NO GUIDE!! Which I mean, wow overreaction to just being a slightly higher age than you were a day ago! Yeah maybe I have no idea where my life is going STILL, but i'm not entirely freaking out about it..I just have to grow up about it...LLAWL!!

So who am I right now, I'm an artist who gets commissions rarely but acceptable, a prop modeller, learning c++ because I have this idea for a source game..oh and I'm a contributor to The Axolotl Sun, HOLY FUCK DUDE HOW DID THIS HAPPEN????
So during my time getting turned down by jobs, I've decided to take up 3d modeling again as a hobby, with help from my genuinely amazing friends; I was able to secure a role as a prop modeler for their recent animations Sticks & Stones 2-3. and I was able to work on a character's hat for the game itself. I don't think I could be more grateful than I am now, these are some of the most funniest people I've ever had the chance to work with. and gave me the confidence I've been lacking for a while... And I hope, when I get a physical job; that I don't have to miss stuff like this,

So that's all I can say for my “first” blog post, I'm doing, really good I think.. And I hope, I can get back to blogging whenever.. My unemployment section of this blog is gonna embarrass me once I start talking about fandom shit and my gripes with the internet.. it's okay though, I recognize I'm an adult and I don't pity myself for the issues In my life haha,,,,